I was not always like this. Three years ago you couldn't have convinced me I would give up the status and financial stability of corporate America. You couldn't have made me believe I would sacrifice all of the perks to open a ramshackle (yet very cool) clothing store right in the middle of downtown. And no way in hell would I have ever for a minute thought I would start something such as a non-profit organization. Because when you run a non-profit organization you have to do things like speak in public, ask for help and ask for money. You know - three things nobody likes.
At the end of the day I'm the kind of person who (in spite of not being a very good caregiver) is the one who makes sure everyone is alright. I guess that's what got me to where I am now. I don't know why my body tolerated the chemotherapy and radiation as well as it did. I do know I'm thankful for it. Even though I have a laundry list of after effects that runs a mile long, at least I was spared the suffering that I saw others go through during treatment. It made me really nervous for awhile. Maybe i didn't get "enough". Enough radiation and chemo. If you ask my mother and my husband they'll say my treatment was absolutely horrendous but I was paying attention to other patients. My treatment was a cakewalk. So in honor of all my friends who survived treatment for head and neck cancer, and in tribute to those who didn't make it, I'm jumping right in to that deep end with both feet. I might have to dog paddle at first but I'll be swimming in no time.